there is no point
in homework.
there is no point
in relationships with people.
there is no point trying to tell someone
that they cannot replace himheritthem.

you cannot replace people. people are people and you cannot replace people.
you will never be to me what she/she/she was.
I had you both and now that they're completely gone and everything's different, everything's different.
this is how it is, this is how I am.

I mean
nothing
to you. you do not need me
don't care about me
scrutinize everything I do
and am.
I do not matter to your everyday.
I hate myself
my life is going nowhere
there is no point in trying

it all leads to End.
Death.
why do we prolong small agonies just to die?
your life is over the second you know
you are going to die.

you are going to die, I am going to die,
why should I stick around for the process
of elimination?
the low grades?
the rejection letters?
your fucking face in the hall smiling?

I want to fucking rip out everything you love
so you fucking understand
you awful vindictive people
and nothing is working and it won't,
there is no therapy for the damned
no words you can say because I do not believe
anything you have to say.
I care too fucking much about you

and I can't fucking listen to the silence anymore
I can't deal with no one needing me and no one caring
how much I fucking need them.

I fucking hate
hate
hate
hate
hate
all but one. two. three.
I hate you three and I hate your stupid fucking pictures