Dig it.

I, as a writer, hate names. In waht way does a name become a person? Shouldn't it be that people become names? I can't get my people to become names.

I want to write all my novels in 'he's and 'she's. Like in ONCE. Only thing is that would be so annoying that no one would ever read them hahaha what a terror.

Strange but necessary to my life contact in my phone: Polaroid, 40404, and Emerson. And ASPCA. Hahaha I am so fucking random. and so fucking gone.

Eddie and I are talking about booking a room in the Cape for a long weekend soon and I could not be more ecstatic about it. Maybe if it was with Dane. But man do I fucking miss Eddie like a nutcase. Like fucking Sadie G right here. I hope we do go.

Gall. is a new project inspired by the 'gaping hole'. Haha also known as I'm writing about my problem in fiction form without having any character study going on, so I really need to do that and figure out what's going on in this to-be novel [if I decide to care that much about it] besides the current. Honestly, I'm just so inspired by Tea, I already referenced it in a manner of three pages.

But overall I don't like the name Diana. I don't like the name Steve or Dave for this guy. I don't like naming my characters anymore because I need character study, they need identities and backgrounds and stories. This is just a piece where it feels silly to name them. So Diana and Dave for now, soon to be Steph and Jon, or Johanna and Rob. Hahaha who knows.

But overall it's helping when I write it so it'll stay. As for the other 'roject' I said I'd put up, I'm getting to it. I just need to get around to connecting my ancient external harddrive to my laptop.

Maybe I should get a new one?
Maybe I should get a Kindle?
Maybe Emerson should contact me and tell me what I need to do about orientation [fall or winter? September or January?]
Maybe I should stop stressing and stop dreading and just do.
Maybe I should just go.

The only thing holding back updates right now is my infinite writer's block, so some... project let's say that I've been messing around with for, oh, quite a few years will be making its way to d.A. The only thing is it's related so to follow it, it'll need to be linked. I've been trying to make it separate entities entirely but for the most part they're all related so thaaaaaaaaat sucksssssss.

Maybe someday I'll get around to attempting to be the next David Foster Wallace.



Hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahhaahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahaaa if only my IGNOBLE SUBJECTS document had some promise.

I want pancakes?

"It's disappointing."

"Why though?"

"Because I raised you better than that."






believe believe.